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Bachelor Bekah Martinez defends ‘Raw and Primal’ Home Birth Video

Expose everything. Bekah Martinez gave a glimpse into the birth of her house, even though she was “afraid of the mean things people might say.”

The Bachelor education alum, 25, welcomed her son, Franklin, in June. His arrival was a “dream come true,” she endorsed the Instagram video on Tuesday, August 4, adding, “It was ecstatic. I literally laughed and joked between contractions and smiled pushing through. ‘

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At first I was nervous about sharing this video. Do not get me wrong; my experience with Franklin’s birth was more than I could have hoped for. It was ecstatic – I literally laughed and joked between contractions and smiled pushing through. It was a dream come true. Strangely enough, the footage felt so raw and primal that I actually didn’t like looking back. I sat with this feeling for a while and came to a few conclusions. First, that I was really afraid of the mean things people might say about something so sacred to me. More importantly, I realized I was uncomfortable seeing myself with so much power. I realized that I still had so many negative, subconscious, deeply embedded thoughts telling me I was not feminine enough; that I looked and sounded weird. I projected so many uncertainties onto an experience that was truly one of the most powerful, magical moments of my life. This is a time worth sharing; so in advance – f * ck the haters. ♥ ️ Video from @laurenguilfordbirths – thank you for capturing both my kids’ births so beautifully! And thank you very much to the following people: @lindseymeehleis you have done so much by doing so little. You believed in my ability to give birth to my baby without intervention. You respected my autonomy when I refused to be checked. You looked on the sidelines with joy as I caught my own baby. You massaged my legs with oil while the placenta came. You never rushed me when I got stuck on Franklin’s arrival. Thanks for everything ✨ Thank you to @pipyopi for being yours and being with me, and giving the two best gifts of my life. ♥ ️ And last but not least, thanks to my mom. This woman was my spiritual guide through both of my children’s births. I can’t ask the number of comments I received about who my great doula was. I am incredibly lucky with a mother who is so intuitive, strong, encouraging, caring and present. It’s something I don’t take for granted. I love you mom.

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However, the podcast cohost ‘Chatty Broads’ felt ‘uncomfortable’ watching the ‘raw and primal images’. “I sat with this feeling for a while and came to some conclusions,” she explained. “I realized that I still had so many negative, subconscious, deeply embedded thoughts telling me I was not feminine enough; that I looked and sounded weird. I projected so many uncertainties onto an experience that was truly one of the most powerful, magical moments of my life. ‘

The former reality star concluded, “This is a time worth sharing; so in advance – f – k the haters. ‘

In the birth video, the then pregnant star walked around and was fueled by her family before sitting in a pool to push. She caught her son when he came out.

Martinez and her friend, Grayston Leonard, also share their 18 month old daughter. Before Ruth became a big sister, the former ABC personality told exclusively Us weekly about her birth plan.

With my first daughter, Ruth, we had her at a birth center, ”she said U.S in May. “This time we decided that we would give birth at midwives’ home. So that was already the plan. Now with quarantine and COVID-19, it’s nice that I don’t have to be in the hospital. … Some people think I’m a little less crazy, so good. ‘

When Franklin arrived, Martinez and the 31-year-old gym owner waited five days to choose a name. “It was like we just never could agree,” she explained Jess Ambrose in a June podcast episode. “There were names we both liked, but then we thought, ‘They don’t suit him.’ We went on like every f-king name imaginable. ‘

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